dia memang camtu

updated at 3:23 a.m. on Thursday, Jun. 18, 2009

Baaaack!!!

Dua tahun lepas aku last update diary ni. So aku amazed yang the diary still exist because Diaryland tend to freeze the account after 6 months or so before. And the best part is, I managed to log in in 1 try after 2 years. So I guess, what the hell. If it meant to be, it is meant to be.

I have broadband connection finally. Macam such an awesome feeling that I can get things faster. That means I can get a whole lot more things done in the same period of time I spend with a dial up. To the point that I am sitting there not sure what I need to do because I have either exhausted my so called boundless ideas what I want to do online or my lack of original ideas on what I want to do online =P

I love this preety layout anyway so I will be sticking around

updated at 1:53 p.m. on Friday, Jun. 12, 2009

Cancelled?

I am not sure how my boss will see this, he will either talk me out of taking my leave. If he does not say anything, I will just assume that I do not need to come on Thursday and Friday.

But it is end of the week in the middle of the month, low queue so it is highly unlikely that shits would happen.

And of course, taking account of Murphy's Law, I should not open my mouth too big...

I am currently handling two teams, in total 10 people (I handled slightly bigger team before) while waiting for return of another AM from the little continent.

If he is not back by Thursday, in my absence, there will be two teams running without an AM although there are 3 very capable individuals that are acting AMs. But I just don't feel like leaving a team without an AM. But then again it IS Raya. So for once I will be extremely self centred (not without a hint of guilt) and take the leave but that of course depends on my boss on what he would do on Wednesday (he would either say nothing or persuade me to come in on Thursday and Friday)

updated at 11:27 a.m. on Monday, Oct. 08, 2007

Raya Madness

Sebenarnya, aku malas nak pegi klinik pasal kalau dapat makan ubat pun, aku akan mengantuk dan pasal bulan puasa ni, aku mana boleh makan ubat siang. So sekarang ni, dah di plagued with a hacking cough, runny nose and slight headache with discomfort in the nasal areas. Membencikan!

Weekend, aku pegi carik cushion cover baru. Mana ada duit nak tukar sofakan, tapi at least, cariklah cushion cover baru.

Aku yang jarang berwindow shopping ni, tak tau mana nak cari benatang alah tu. Lepas pegi ambik ubat ibu kat Hospital Kajang, aku try round pekan Kajang tu, tapi buat angin aje, pasal jam dan jalan one way nya. If you want to head to the building next door, don't expect to just cruise towards it. In Kajang (and in KL I would later realised belatedly) you have to make one big turn around, to get there. Oh, did I mentioned you have to brave the impossible traffic as well?

Dengan panasnya, I decided, to KL we go! Pegi KL ikut Lebuhraya Cheras Kajang yang aku rasakan satu jalan yang sangatlah jauhnya untuk menyampaikan KL tuh.

On the way, lengkap dengan traffic jamnya, display electronic jalan tu, siap tulis Tempat Letak Kereta di Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman, Jalan Dang Wangi dan Jalan Masjid India Penuh. Aku dah tension dah masa tu. Sampai KL pun belum, dah kena sound yang area tu dah penuh dengan orang. Oh, masa tu ibu ada so aku tak boleh nak komuter (ibu cepat penat). Aku gamble ajelah drive sampai KL, and sure enough, it was as shitty as what the board says! It was jam packed with people! Semua orang tengah sebok buat last minute shopping Raya.

Aku nak kata apa. Pusing lagi area Jln TAR tu, pastu ibu cakap, jom cuba carik dekat Macy, Seri Kembangan.

Heh, terus masuk jalan Parlimen and cruised back to south, mengarah ke SK. Sesampai kat Macy pulak, still no joy! Kedai tu untuk decoration yang posh aje. Mak ni, low maintenance je, hari raya punya preparation sumer dibuat sederhana je.

Since tak dapat lagi sarung cushion yang dicari, I told myself, maybe I should go to Jusco. Kalau takde, try Parkson ke. I was not willing to give up just yet.

I drove to Jusco, Taman Equine, and looked for the damn cushion cover. (Thank God for the bench, so ibu tak payah nak jalan jalan, she was dead tired by then) and sure enough I found the thing I was looking for!

Rasa macam orang bodoh pun ada jugak sebenarnya. Buat penat je aku pusing ke Kajang, KL, pastu pegi Macy, rupanya benda ni ada kat Jusco belakang rumah je!

Aku cari warna kuning, yelahkan! Setelah bertema merah dan marroon selama ni, tahun ni berpindah ke warna yang lebih meriangkan - gold dan kuning! Thank god for the 50% discount (That damn thing could cost RM180!)

Beli square cushion utk letak dekat sofa, yang dah ada tu marroon, boleh pakai lagi, tambah dengan warna ala bronze sikit, in 2 shades. I dunno, I want to make ruang tamu di teratak buruk aku tu, kira ok sikit.

Dah tu, semalam pula, operasi cari kerepek. Pegi beli dekat Kanchong Darat. That is next to Banting for those who are geographically challenged. Then again! The same crowd! I could just die! Orang ramai gila pegi kat kilang tu nak beli kerepek! Berebut rebut! Pastu ada pula opportunist who would stand at one corner and grabbed whatever that come their way even though its not theirs. To be frank with you, I am not a very feisty person, but I guess I am getting old, so my level of patience wears thin when I drove all the way there and di perkotak katikkan by some mite size of a human being (Yes, I am proud of my tall by Asian standard size) Since there was so many people, how the system work (which I have to learn rather quickly once I get there) is to get one of the plastic bags of 5kgs of kerepeks and if I wish to have it packed to standard 500gm or 1kg is to bring it to the packer so they can segragate, weigh and pack for you. I had this 5kg maruku pack with me (standing there like silly, but heck since everybody doing it, it does not feel so silly) waited for like 20 minutes (thank God again for the kipas directed to me behind my back) waiting for my turn. Then, when my turn came, I just thought I will only take 2 packs of 1Kgs for me and my sis in law. Once you handed the pack to the packer, you wait on the other side and take the pack from the machine. Kat situ ada dua tiga orang yang memang berdiri kat situ tunggu packs tu, aku ingat kerja kat situ, tapi rupanya cilanat tu semuanya macam aku jugak! Due tiga pack kerepek aku tu keluar, sedap je dia ambik. Aku tengok je dia, macam tak sangka, apa jenis manusialah dia ni, sesuka hati dia je ambik hak orang. Lagipun aku nak 2 kilo je so aku malas nak bising. Aku tau tinggal 2 pack je lagi coming our way so aku tunggulah, tengok2 dia nak ambik lagi, aku terus hulur tangan aku, ambik pack tu, terkulat kulat minah tu. Tapi lepas tu pun, dia nak ambik jugak! Aku buat benda yang sama. GERAM BETUL!!!! NASIB BAIK AKU PUASA KALAU TAK!!!! Aku sound jugak kat dia “Apa ni, ambik hak orang?”

Berbulu betul aku dibuatnya. Apa yang dia fikirkan? Kalau dia nak pegi cari pack besar sendirilah! Kenapa mencuri! Aku boring betul nak berperang pasal benda bodoh macam kerepek tapi itulah dia manusia.

Tapikan, ada jugak kerepek aku nak tak dapat : Kerepek pisang, kerepek bawang dengan kerepek keladi. So sis in law ajak cari kat Banting. Jumpa memanglah jumpalah kerepek yang dikehendaki.... tapi harga dia dua kali ganda!

Aku ingat next year, kalau aku nak beli kerepek kat kilang tu lagi aku pegi weekdays. Next year I will be more prepared kalau ada umur lagi. Aku akan ambik cuti dan kalau boleh, set out as early as possible, pasal kat kilang tu, harga memang murah betul!

Aku sempat sambar satu bekas tart nenas kat situ, RM16.00. Dah malas nak buat kuih, beli ajelah! So sekarang ni, tunggu kuih raya tempahan je dengan kek pisang. Kuih raya akan dihantar ke rumah hari Khamis nanti (Mamat tu kata nak buat airdrop, aku cakap, boleh je, aku suka makan habuk biskut raya…) Kek pisang pulak, aku mintak 3 instead of 2.

Hmmm… macam membazirkan kat kerepek dengan kuih raya je dah cecah RM200.00

Khamis mula cuti! YEEEHAW!!! And ma sista coming back! So siang tu, mungkin aku patut mula pasang langsir dan kemas ruang depan, tapi tengoklah, aku lebih suka berkemas malam dari siang, pasal lebih sejuk dan tenang gitu.

Tapi malam khamis tu, sure kena pegi jemput cik Anillynette kat LCCT. Aku tak sabar tunggu Wednesday. My last day at work. Man… if life arrangement is better, I would love the idea that it would be my last day at work… ever.

updated at 01:50 p.m. on Monday, Oct. 08, 2007

Sama kaler

Rabu, warna biru... Khamis, warna merah putih, Jumaat, warna hitam kuning.

Perasan aku di buatnya =P

updated at 02:24 p.m. on Friday, Oct. 05, 2007

He eh! Nak Raya!

Maybe because I actually got 7 days leave for Raya… unprecedented since I worked here. I am so happy!

Sejak ayah takde dan ibu yang makin tua ni, raya disambut sederhana je. Dulu paling wajib buat dodol. Tapi pasal ibu dah tak berapa sihat ni, takdelah buat dodol lagi. Plan hari tu nak beli kerepek je. Tapi orang yang selalu ditempah tu, mesinnya rosak dan dengar dengarnya, separuh nak gila pasal hilang business di musim raya ni.

Akan revert to plan B. Nampak ada jiran tu siap bukak gerai lagi jual kerepek. Kalau panjang umur, cuba beli weekend ni. Cukuplah beli kerepek ubi, kerepek pisang dengan kerepek bawang kalau ada. Tumpi dengan tempeyek selalu beli dengan jiran satu ni. Mintaknya anak dia meneruskan perusahaan keluarga kerna makcik yang selalu membuat kuih itu telah dihospitalised pasal batu karang.

Kalau takde, mungkin akan tempah dengan abang angkat kat ofis ni yang emaknya seorang felakon fofular yang juga pakar menghasilkan kerepek kerepek jawa ni. Dari abang ni juga telah menempah dua kek pisang sebelum cuti minggu depan. Abang nih, effeminate sket, tapi dah kahwin dan pandai masak kek pisang. Dia buat suka suka je pasal dia boring dok rumah kalau tak kerja. Kelaskan abang ni!

Cookies pulak, seperti biasa cookies tunjuk je. Jealous jugak tengok orang tu buat kuih raya sendiri tapi apakan daya, takde kesempatan (malas nak ngadap oven panas lima nam hari buat cookies)

Beli cookies pun dua jenis je, ditempah dengan rakan ofis, lelaki juga tapi straight as a ruler gitu yang membuat business membakar cookies dengan abangnya. Walaupun terasa agak terpukul, buat muka selamba je, under pretence of supporting his business (sample dia sedap wo!)

Tak banyak sangat choice tapi nak cookies bebanyak pun buat apa? Rumah aku kalau raya ni, wajib rendang daging ayam je, pastu lemang pegi beli dekat Kuang (jauh gila nak pegi beli lemang) Tapi lemang kat Kuang tu memang best. Dia jual kat Chow Kit sebenarnya tapi memandangkan nak elak dari terlibat dalam aksi WWE dekat tempat orang jual lemang tu, kitorang selalu terus pegi rumah tokey dia je. Beli 7 – 8 batang sekali. Lemang yang amat cukup sifat, besar besar pulak tu! Kira berpatutan dan berbaloilah berdriving sampai ke Kuang on the eve of each Raya (Tahun lepas tak dapat ikot pasal kerja!)

Kalau nak tau (kalau taknak pun, bagitau jugak…) kami ni sentiasa mengamalkan dasar rumah tertutup (only relatives and close neighbour invited) dan dasar ‘anak sapa ni? aku tak kenal jangan bagi dia masuk’ (trick tutup lampu sebelah malam kalau ada suara suara kecil tak dikenali memberi salam). So, kuih kuih ni tak baper sangat, selalunya mula mula raya tu, kitorang hidangkan lemang dan rendang, lepas lepas tu, selalunya ibu akan masak mi dsbgnya. Jadi, rasanya tak payahlah membazir beli kuih banyak banyak nantipun hanya akan mengakibatkan kebloatedan saja kerana tuan rumah sendiri melantak makan kuih raya. Takpun fenomena dia mana kuih raya Aidilfitri akan muncul semula di raya Aidiladha.

Duduk kat kawasan rumah aku tu pun bukan apa. Dia ada beberapa mob of little rascals yang boleh mencapai 10 orang yang akan menyerang unsuspecting host to suck their duit raya money dry… Dan selalunya sampai tak kenal… anak sapa ni? Pastu, datang dua tiga round. Silap aribulan, langsung tak makan kuih, tak minum sirap yang dihidangkan, terus cakap dah nak balik… (apa lagi, cepatlah bagi duit raya!) Lepas tu ada di satu hari Raya yang hening, anak anak siamang tak berajar ni telah mencuri duit raya yang telah tertinggal di atas meja tamu masa kitorang kat dapur. Habis lesap ration duit raya untuk tahun tu, so sejak daripada itu, kalau takat anak tah sapa sapa tah ni, memang kitorang tak kasi masuk pun.

Begitulah!

Rasanya tahun ni, akan sedikit OK sket. Dah siap teneng gerai ane sorang ni, nak beli bunga nak tabur kat kubur ayah lagi. Pastu, kena beli cushion seat cover pasal yang kitorang ada ni ada kesan koyak misteri cam ada orang main razor blade… Ni pun tak tau nak beli kat mana. Mungkin Sabtu ni I will brave the KL pre Raya shopping rush and go around… mintak mintak dapatlah yang OK punya yang berege beh kurang RM100. Syukur langsir sumer masih hensem lagi.

Ceh… nak kerje dah. =P

updated at 01:03 p.m. on Wednesday, Oct. 03, 2007

What I need

Memulas mulas, pastu rasa berangin semacam. Kejap OK, kejap sakit. Sekarang dah terdehydrated, can feel how dry my skin is and how they go wrinkly under the a/c. And the best part is, how tired I feel without doing anything much, just basically trying to do what I do and bear the pain that come and go.

Dinner Saturday night was boring. But because of the dinner and of course for Raya I bought two pair of shoes and two evening bags. Dangerous spending. With my enourmous pair of feet, I finally found two shoes that can be categorised as cute. Now, if only my shoes cost RM20 tops, instead of RM99.90 or RM120.90 life will be good. I mean, even for day to day girly sandals will cost me RM99.90 and I am not Carrie Bradshaw T_T Oh puhlease! As such, my shoes collection will always be limited to two most of the time which will be worn again and again to oblivion in a span of six to eight months before I get another set of 2.

*sigh*

I am determined to buy at least a pair each month! But of course I will never settle for ONE pair in a visit. Its always two! Three will be really pushing it... but heck, I want to have more shoes to rotate so they will not be torn asunder after six to eight months…

…

I also need 3 new pairs of black pants and maybe a pair of new jeans…

updated at 05:43 p.m. on Monday, Oct. 01, 2007

MerLarLoot

Boss approve cuti Raya!

Untung jugak menjadi satu-satunya AM Melayu kat sini. Zaman cuti cuti raya ni dapat cuti HOHOHO!

Dahlah tamak, request dari 11th to 19th. Cuti panjang panjang buat apa woi? Tak tau lagi. But my sister pun balik hari Khamis tu.

Most definitely kena pegi Tampin. But I hope we don't need to spend a night there or something. Because I really dislike certain cousins of ours which definitely will be there as well! My poor mother, she really wants to visit her brother, so of course it is a definite thing. I'll make sure of that but my mind is reeling for a solution that will allow us to be there for two days but not spending the night there! My uncle which is my mother's older brother will have none of that but then again, of course the cousins who are like ants to a honey pot will be there. It makes me feel self concious being there because it is as if, we want to menumpang their kesenangan when all we wanted to do is to allow mom to see her brother like once a year...

I don't know... but it might be fun if we do an excursion to Melaka. That will be mighty fun wouldn't it? I really want to go to Jonker's Street. I don't know why, I enjoy going there, its not that far and there's lots to see. Been there before with mom and I really had fun! Maybe can drop mom there and I can go with sis? Kesian pulak my mom kena tinggal kat situ...

Tapi rasanya first Raya we will be in Serdang, just us girls. Don't know if my brother will be with us this Raya. Then, second Hari Raya baru pegi melawat my dad's pusara. I don't know why, we would usually go on the second day of Raya instead of first. This year I will make sure we will be more prepared, instead of macam raya tahun lepas... macam orang gila...

Get the flowers prepared properly. Get the water prepared properly.

Pastu pegi jalan jalan kat KL ke... I was so frustrated last time when my sister got back because I cannot take leave and I had to do WEEKEND SHIFT!!!! Geram betul! No way they will bully me to do the stupid shift this time! So we will be able to do some merayauing around. That would be fun. Pegi Bagan Lalang ke, PD ke. I don't know! Anythinglah! Going to spend 9 days not working after Raya. No way I'm just going to waste that.

Imagine, I was hardly taking any leave for the first half of the year. For that six months, I just took three days leave. Then I started to do the crazy weekend shift which in turn I got three days off each time. That got accumulated because despite the crazy 14 hours shift, I can only take one day off at a time because the queues were high during that time. I cannot leave my guys on their own. Then, I finally managed to finish the weekend shifts off, so hardly had anytime to take annual leave. So now, I have lotsa days outstanding and taking leave in December seems to be out of the questions since the other AMs have hungrily applied in that month, especially for Christmas and Boxing days (Damn this year, it fell on Tuesday and Wednesday, so after weekend, we will go to work for a day and die and then Christmas, followed by Boxing day and then we will die again on Thurday and then Friday, then weekend again, after that, Monday, what do you know, high volume again and then Tuesday New Year Holiday! Then Wednesday, sure mati one. That week. Schedule kerja terkentut kentut! Jerking about, tak smooth langsung. Kerja, Cuti, Kerja, Cuti... The queues will be high and sure mati punya.

I came in at 2pm today. Now its 10.49pm. I should be leaving at 11.00pm. I am so evil of abusing certain access :D

updated at 10:50 a.m. on Friday, Sept. 28, 2007

Monday, Tuesday

updated at 1:55 a.m. on Wednesday, Sept. 26, 2007

13 hours

updated at 5:40 a.m. on Tuesday, Sept. 25, 2007

Drive

Going to work, there will be four traffic lights. One in front of Equine Park, one at Jusco, two at Cyber. Before, there were only two. The ones in Cyber.

Coming home, there will be seven. Two at exit to SK, one at Putra Permai, one at Jusco, one at Equine Park, one at Taman U and one at intersection to Bukit Indah.

I hate traffic lights.

I also have lapses when I drive home. I will be so lost in my thoughts and then suddenly shaken up to find myself passing a traffic light, or taking an intersection. I would go, did I stop? Did I make sure it was safe to pass? Was the traffic light green?

This will sometimes happen a couple of times on one trip.

Today it happened at Jusco traffic light. But I was pretty sure it was green because there were cars around me.

It also happens when I drive to work. Usually when I reach the LDP intersection, I would suddenly realise - Here already? - mind racing to remember when did I passed the Pasar Borong or the second Petronas.

I know this is a pretty normal phenomenon. But I worry one of these days my subconscious would lose its judgment.

I'm a relatively safe driver, except when I am pissed off. One of my biggest fear is car crash. Been to a couple not very serious ones, God forbids of any serious ones from happening to me or my family.

Being my weakness I would have this dream from time to time. More like a nightmare. I would find myself driving in a long journey and gotten so tired. But I did not stop anywhere to rest, I kept on driving and gotten more sleepy as I go on. To the point of I would nod off in this unwakeable sleep. This will freak me out, because I would feel disattached from myself. Inside but disconnected. I would think frantically WAKE UP!! WAKE UP!! YOU'RE GOING TO CRASH! Usually I would pretty much wake up from my sleep. Relieved like hell that it was all a stupid dream. But it always feels so real.

I would always have this dream as well. Me and family on a vacation. The dream will either be my late dad or myself driving, up this scenic place. Its setting is almost like Nightmare before Christmas (Yeah, scenic). Then suddenly, there was this climb, quite steep. I will usually lose my confidence, but my dad, who is an excellent driver with many years of experience, will tell me that "Boleh, gear 1." Since he said it can be done, I shift to 1st gear and climb up. It gets bizarre because this climb will get steeper and steeper until it is over 90 degrees. Then, the next thing I knew the car was upside down. At this point I would panic and wake up relieved that it was another stupid dream.

Silly ne?

Since my car acting up yet again, I fantasized about what car I will get if money not an issue now.

2007 Honda Civic Sedan LX Manual Transmission in Tango Red Pearl (USD23,000 including accessories)

or

2007 CR-V 4WD EX Automatic Transmission in Green Tea Metallic (USD$30,404 including accessories)

... well, a girl can only dream!

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updated at 3:03 a.m. on Tuesday, Jun. 26, 2007